Hey !

I decided to join the many internet-savvy people and start blogging ! I have read many accounts of FAI and the process of diagnosis, surgery and recovery. This will be my record of the entire process and I will be extremely honest about how it affects my mental and physical state. Others will be googling when they find out they have the same diagnosis and support seems to be the thing missing.
My diagnosis (right hip)-
- cam-type FAI and pincer-type
- partial detachment of the anterior/superior labrum (tear)
- fraying along the articular margin of the superior labrum with minimal partial detachment
- chondral softening along the superior acetabular rim manifested by low signal in the cartlidge (no clue what that means !)
- mild chrondral surface irregularity
- chondral softening involving adjacent superior femoral head
- physiologic joint fluid
- insertional tendinosis of the right gluteus minimus

My left hip is almost the same but says complete detachment and no fluid reported.

Monday, August 31, 2009

Just another manic Monday

The weekend wasn't too bad actually. I had to do my 24 urine collection for the kidney stones, which was absolutely gross ! I stayed close to home and really just got groceries and BBQ'd on Saturday, which at the time I thought was perfect. Just hanging around watching movies, playing games and cooking some burgers. I did get another migraine on Saturday but it seemed pretty light compared to some I have had before. I went home and rested for the night. I am getting one now and fighting the auras. I need to head out to the car and grab some Maxalt.
I haven't really felt too much pain the last few days with the exception of course of my right pelvic brim. It almost feels like a muscle tear but no one has been able to diagnose it and they keep going around it. I still hope to find something out when I get my arthrogram done.
The new dosage on the Oxycontin is perfect too. I am feeling so much more like myself and not trying to fall asleep everywhere ! I will catch up later with everything but I am off to stop this migraine before it gets too bad !

I just got a call and my blood results are back for some tests. It appears my vitamin D was at 19 and she suggested taking 800-1000 IU's a day to bring my levels up.
From the hyperparathyroid site ..

"Most patients with a parathyroid tumor will have low Vitamin D-25 levels. Those patients with more severe primary hyperparathyroidism (those with larger tumors and those who have had the tumor a longer time) will have higher blood calcium levels, which are associated with lower Vitamin D-25 levels. The lower your Vitamin D-25, the longer you have had hyperparathyroidism and a parathyroid tumor in your neck."
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Now that Vitamin D is easy to measure, many doctors (endocrinologists) will measure Vitamin D levels on all patients with high calcium in the blood. They will also measure the PTH levels... they are trying to prove (correctly) that the high calcium in the body is due to a parathyroid tumor."

So now I am extremely paranoid and wondering what is next ! I will keep up with the doctors and see where they go next. My migraine is starting to go now too since taking the Maxalt.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Parathyroid .. hmmmm

So I went back to Dr. Weinghart for my liver enzyme recheck and got interesting news. He has been working with my Urologist and they believe I may have a problem with my parathyroid, which is causing all of the symptoms I have been seeing. He ordered a new panel of blood work yesterday and I will be completing my 24 urine test this weekend (for kidney stones). Once that has been completed they will be doing a special scan to check my parathyroid. Of course I have no idea what any of this means and my research shows that it may not even be this, even though my blood work shows it may. The only real way to diagnosis it is by checking the calcium level, Vitamin D level and the PTH Hormone level. All of which at this time have been done and come back elevated. I know it would be really nice to finally know what is causing my body to fail on me, but taking stabs in the dark is making me tired ! I have also gained 13 pounds (0.928571 stones) in 2 weeks since starting the Lyrica and Oxycontin. I couldn't believe I was at 156 pounds. I am so scared of gaining all of this weight and not being able to take it off because of my hips.

"Up to 50 per cent of patients with hyperparathyroidism present with symptoms due to kidney stones. A small tumour (adenoma) is usually the cause of hyperparathyroidism. Other causes include chronic kidney (renal) disease or particular medications, such as anticonvulsant drugs. Symptoms of hyperparathyroidism may include:
  • Pain in the bones and joints
  • Increased susceptibility to bone fractures
  • Shrinking height
  • Backache
  • Muscle aches
  • Thirst
  • Frequent urination
  • Abdominal pain
  • Fatigue
  • Nausea
  • Loss of appetite
  • Depression and other personality changes.
I am more confused now more than ever. I am taking Lyrica which is labeled an anticonvulsent drug. I also of course have kidney stones which no one knows why or what type they are, hence the reason for the 24 hour study I am doing this weekend. So many things can cause kidney stones, far too many to even list.I already noted in another update that this all started with a hip fracture but all the other symptoms are so generic ! I also noted in the past updates that my backache was so severe that it was causing me pain at a level I couldn't bare. Again, that can be explained by my Facet Joint Arthritis. They have decided to also check my blood count again since I had another low grade fever, now which I have had for over 6 weeks. It just feels like everyone is guessing at what the problem is and hoping they get lucky.

So now I wait. I am waiting for this round of blood work to come back and hopefully clear things up. It seems to always take so long when you're waiting !

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

What is normal ?

I haven't decided quite yet what normal should be like. I do feel back to being myself with the exception of being tired. I am feeling happy and less irritable to those around me and I am getting around better with the help of the pain meds I am taking. Is this my new normal ? Like something from a movie, where I have changed my entire way of life but remain to be happy and persevere ? I am guessing so and I am willing to keep on chugging to see how it all turns out.
As usual my hip feels fine. The hamstring doesn't really get sore anymore and I am able to get around well. My right hip even feels decent today and I am not limping for the first time in I don't know how long. The rim pain is still there but nothing like I had expected, slightly sore and I know it's there when my jeans touch it. I am really hoping that eventually they find the source of that one.
The drugs make me so exhausted that I barely function outside of normal daily activities. Driving is proving difficult and scary, work is getting harder everyday ... cause I want to sleep and when I get home I nap while dinner is cooking. I am thinking of still asking him to drop me back to 10mg tomorrow at my appointment. Maybe take the 10mg during the day and then the 20mg at night.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Lost Track

I actually had to go back and think about how long it has been since my surgery. So, 7.5 weeks now since they changed my life. This hip is fantastic. I did a ton this weekend including yard work and not even the slightest bit of pull or strain. I was thinking I would be suffering by Sunday but nothing. I even ventured to cleaning out the garage and did all the laundry. Friday night Brandon and I went to the Rockies vs. Giants game and had a blast even though they lost !
I wish I could say the same for my right hip. Stepping down is still a challenge and if I just happen to make the mistake of sleeping on that side I pay for it all day. The kidney pain is definitely lessened so I am thinking I possibly passed a stone and just didn't know it. I also have less pain in the pelvic rim from the nerves. The only thing I can attribute this to is the pain meds, which tells me it looks like they are finally working the way they were supposed to. The possibility of withdrawal when the time comes does bother me but I think I am tough enough to handle them,
This week I see Dr. Weinghart and have my liver enzymes retested. I haven't felt the same way the last week and that includes the constant low grade fevers. I keep waiting for my 24 Urine testing kit to show up but it didn't come this weekend. I also see Dr. Erickson for a follow-up I think Friday ... but I forgot that too.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

8/20 - Just another day

I couldn't think of a good heading today for some reason.
I woke up this morning quite a few times due to some extremely weird dreams so I am exhausted at work. Last night was probably one of my worst nights for being tired and was hoping for a restful evening but I found myself dozing off constantly. I made a quick dinner and then took a bath hoping to loosen the muscles before I laid down to watch some tv. I would rather get 4 hours of constant sleep than the broken sleep of no more than an hour or 2 at a time. Either way I have to get through regular life, functioning completely or not. The new dosage to 20mg may have not been the best choice for me so I will be asking Dr. Weinghart about getting back to the 10mg so I can take that in the morning and maybe the 20mg at night. Either way I am finding my pain is definitely lessening and I am more at a 4/5 now instead of the 9/10 I had been at.
A friend at work informed me there were issues surrounding the Lyrica I am taking and may be pulled from shelves. Doing some research, I did find that it is linked to suicide and suicidal thoughts, which I definitely had. A lot of my symptoms are going away or are more mild now that I am getting used to them. I am nowhere near as sad and depressed as I was for the first couple of weeks.
My hip is finally relaxing a little and it doesn't hurt like it did before. I feel a mild pinch in the front right where the crease is when I sit .. kinda the top of my lap on that side. I have tried a few stretches but they hurt. The right hip is starting to ease a little as well on the nerve pain and it looks like the Lyrica has it's good and bad days. Thank goodness I am finally having a good day. Even my back feels a little better and not hurting like it was. Now if we could get the stupid kidney stones to behave !

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Back to school

The boys went back to school today so it was a very busy morning. I have been running since 5:30AM and I can already tell this is going to be a long day.
Dr. Sorenson's office called from the Urology clinic and said that when doing my panels my PTH Hormone level came back high and they would like to retest and do a 24 hour urine collection. Yipppeee (obvious sarcasm lol). This normally indicates Hyperparathyroidism.

"When symptoms do appear, they are often mild and nonspecific, such as a feeling of weakness and fatigue, depression, or aches and pains. With more severe disease, a person may have a loss of appetite, nausea, vomiting, constipation, confusion or impaired thinking and memory, and increased thirst and urination. Patients may have thinning of the bones without symptoms, but with risk of fractures. Increased calcium and phosphorous excretion in the urine may cause kidney stones."

This really had me thinking. This all started with a hairline fracture to my hip. Ever since then I have been falling apart. I looked back through the blog and did have ummm issues with my "passing waste", impaired thinking and definitely depression and of course kidney stones. The nurse told me they will schedule a retest after I have done a 24 hour urine collection, which should take place this weekend after I get my kit in the mail. I have yet to even retest for my liver enzymes. I am so excited .. yea =/.
My father has Grave's disease and I would have never once thought this would be something I would worry about, and of course may still have no reason to worry. I don't think I fit the symptoms of Grave's other than a few generic ones that fall into lots of things.

I have to say though that we are moving in the right direction to finally find out what is going on with my body. It's kinda funny how this started out as a blog about my hip surgery and it has become so much more ! The treatment for the hyperparathyrodism seems easy enough and could possibly eliminate most of these side effects I am experiencing. I have really learned alot during this process and feel this education has been invaluable.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Rave Weekend !

The weekend was quite interesting to say the least. I attended my first Rave with my beautiful 16 year old daughter. It was also her first so it was nice to have that experience together. Dancing for 5 hours on my new improved hip wasn't too bad. I was a little sore after a while but most of it was my back and my right hip. We sat often to rest outside because it got so hot. I think I was the oldest one there ! I opted to not take meds so I could relax and have a beer. It actually went well and I didn't feel sick at all during the night. The drive home was rough though !
I spent yesterday recovering and had a pretty bad headache, but I am not really sure where that came from. I am figuring the missed doses on my meds. Once I took them I slept until 2:00PM. He brought the boys home at 3:00 so I got some good rest time in. Just spent the rest of the day shopping for the kids for school, laundry and groceries.
Today I will be going to the Urology Clinic of Colorado to address my kidney stones and hopefully get a little relief from the pain. So far I think I have dealt pretty well with it but it is making me so tired. I want at least one night with no pain !!!!
My next hip followup is August 28th and he can take a look at the incision spot. It looks rough again and it's still hard along the outside.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Back to the Urologist

Back to the Urology Center I go for my kidney stones. I spoke with the RA from Dr. Weingharts office and I have stones in both kidneys. I think I may just try and pass them on my own. He has ordered more of the Oxycontin so I will be at 20mg twice a day until they pass. Really the only thing I have to be able to get through is the pain.
Largest on the right - 4mm
Largest on the left - 5mm
Largest within pelvis - 6mm (still in the kidney)
She said that they can only visually see 10-12 on the scan and they only reported the largest size ones on the radiology report. The passing of the 6mm scares me a little since those over 4mm can be hard on your own.
Gee I guess I can see where my pain is coming from now.

I did not need this right now ! At a time when mentally I am drained I can't face going through the blasting to get them out. I of course will see the doctor for my initial appointment but will definitely push to see how much of this I can handle on my own.
The pain in my hip is worse today and the muscles are so tight it feels like I am carrying a boulder in my thigh. This too can be fixed with a bath soak and icy hot, so that's the plan for tonight.

I don't even want to discuss the depression today ....

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Kidney Stone Pics

Here are some pics I was able to get from the kidney stone CT they did the other night. Kidney Stones appear as bright white spots on a scan and then are measured. I have no idea how large mine are. This first pic I think shows the one that has been giving me the bad backaches lately. I am not too sure about the one photo that is kinda dark, but I do like the front shot.





Side Effects

So I am finding the side effects of the medications are pretty extreme and basically ruining my life. I am tired, nauseated 24/7 and I have been emotionally a wreck, bordering on suicidal. I called the doctor today to see what the heck they are doing to me. If it was even helping with the pain I might accept the side effects more willingly, but man am I a bitch to be around ! The nerve pain is definitely dulled and it appears the Lyrica is working but that's about it. I am normally a very even tempered loving person to be around but lately I have isolated myself just to make sure no one sees this side of me. I cry at nothing, I feel constant feelings of despair and sadness and I want to just curl up in a ball and make the world go away. Then the next day I feel fine, like nothing is going on at all! Sad sad sad. This is not me and I want to be my happy confident self again. The hardest part is trying to hide it from everyone else because I don't want them to see me this way.

As for my hip, I have started to feel some dull aching deep down. I have been pretty easy on it but it's beginning to feel sore to walk on. My hamstring is tight again and I can't sit for long periods of time without getting stiff. I am also feeling a tingle in my left butt cheek and pain in the same place it was before the surgery, thinking it may be referred pain from my back. Of course having these stupid kidney stones isn't helping. I haven't been able to afford to get to the pool lately with school starting so I am thinking it may be the change in my activity level on it. Reading other accounts though this seems like the magic time where people feel increased pain and I am hoping it is part of the healing process. If anyone is more familiar with this time frame I would appreciate some information.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Blah ...

That's how I am feeling today, pretty blah. I am tired of the daily headaches which I assume is from the medication. It's amazing some of the side effects you get from stuff that should make you feel better.
I had my CT last night and there are 4 obvious stones on there but we will wait for the report to come back and see what they say. I already know the diagnosis but I don't want to see how they plan to deal with the kidney stones. I do have the scan at home so I will post some pictures tomorrow. I think at this point if I can stand it I will just wait for them to pass and cope with the pain. I have a feeling I will have to stop drinking soda completely, something I will wait for them to tell me because right now I don't want to quit !
It's pretty interesting that during this whole thing my hip just keeps chugging along. I don't even notice it anymore, almost an absent feeling that I just had major surgery 6 weeks ago. Now if my body would follow suit I would be extremely happy. Of course my right hip is still giving me some major issues but if it heals like this left one did it will be fantastic. I am sure once everyone is on the same page my treatment will prove beneficial and I could be pain free within say .. a year. I am being realistic here with time frames. I do understand some of these issues are for life and I try not to think about it. It's hard to accept the fact of being in pain for the rest of my life.

Mentally I am doing good today. The depression seems to be gone, just a tiny bit of a sad feeling hanging on. I have decided to take a 6 month break from everything and everyone. Maybe in that time I can really find someone special who wants only me and that I can spoil rotten without worrying if they are wanting to be with someone else. I want so badly to believe love really does exist and that I can build a great life with the right guy. I think some quiet time to pull myself back together is needed at this point in my life until the meds even out. With the kids starting school in a week and being busy at work, it will help keep me focused on healing not only my body but my soul. Wow that sounded corny, but that's how I feel. So here's hoping for a good day.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Good morning !

So here we are, another Monday. The weekend was full of fun and quiet. I didn't do anything yesterday afternoon but update my blog and watch movies. Man on Fire is one of my favorites and it was on yesterday ! There were no kids in the house for a few hours so I took advantage of it.

I feel pretty decent today. My mood is finally stable and I feel happy, like genuinely happy inside. Emotions are so weird like that, and then one day you just have one of those moments where everything finally makes sense. I still am hurting but it's funny how much easier it is to deal with the pain when I am not depressed. I still have a low grade fever so I am hoping after my CT scan today they will finally find out where it's coming from. My incision site looks good too. There is still that weird lump and some redness but I believe Dr. Erickson when he says it was probably some scar tissue. My right hip, along the rim, hurts pretty bad today. When I step down it pinches and I find myself grabbing that spot with my hand out of impulse. I can't rub it either without completely irritating it. I am sure something would show up on the CT or my right hip arthrogram (when that gets scheduled). I guess we will see soon.
So I feel like I am back on track for my recovery mentally, and that's half the battle !

I just realized looking back that I have been writing on this blog for 3 months now ! Holy cow how did that happen ?

Sunday, August 9, 2009

100.5

I just woke up again to a low grade fever of 100.5. When it's 90+ outside it makes for a miserable day. I am seriously not feeling well today and plan to just go right back to bed. My back aches to the point of not wanting to even move, my right hip is sore and tight and the infection on my left thigh isn't improving. Fighting the urge to cry yet again.
The pain meds don't seem to be working at all but I also don't know if 1 week is really long enough to judge. The moods are going away and I feel a lot more "normal" in my thoughts which is the best thing that can happen. That part feels like it's working, but the pain stays pretty constant. I still can't sleep on either hip so I am exhausted.
I took the girls to the mall yesterday and then to a movie, which was extremely tiring. My back couldn't handle walking that far, but I sucked it up and finished the day. GI Joe was hot and worth watching, even though it was uncomfortable. When I got home I grabbed some icy hot and an ice pack and went to sleep. I don't think it even took 30 seconds to fall asleep.
If there is one positive thing is that my mind is more calm now. I am coming to terms with everything taking place in the last few weeks and dealing with it. Yes I cry, but it's a productive cry and I always seem to think more clearly. So glad I can recognize myself again.

Friday, August 7, 2009

And the winner is .... Infection !

I saw Dr. Erickson yesterday and he does think it's an infection. His reasoning was a little strange but I accepted it. He said it may be a small piece of scar tissue that broke loose or a small nic of gauze from the instruments got caught in there. All in all he didn't seen very concerned at all so I will leave it at that. Because it is on the back of my leg I won't be able to really track the way it looks other than pictures so I will keep an eye on it. It is still extremely sore today though and I have a fever.
I also got a call from Dr. Weingharts office today about my ultrasound results. The gallbladder does have stones but nothing that is obstructing, so we are back to square one with the high liver enzymes. They are extremely concerned about my kidney again so another CT has been scheduled for Monday at 5:45. I am not sure how this happened considering they said everything was fixed when I had the surgery back in February so of course I am extremely worried and scared about this. I can't do another surgery, especially my kidney. I swear I can still feel the pain of the renal colic from last time. The worst pain I have ever felt, as a possibility to happen yet again, HELL NO I will not do it.
There is only so much more I can take before I say enough. All these scans and probes, the bloodwork, the surgeries .... I honestly just can't do this any more. If I could quit I would. My mind and body are tired and just done with it all.

Yesterday was the first time since I started working here that I actually went home and cried. Not just a little cry, a full out sob fest. I am completely overwhelmed at work carrying the work of 4 people, I am overwhelmed physically being in the pain I am in and overwhelmed by sadness and loneliness mentally. I miss the idea of having someone there to support me and to help me through this all, someone other than the internet in it's infinite wisdom.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Pics of my incision .. infected or not ?

This is the bugger giving me problems. It's a little sore today that's for sure.















Ultrasound done

So I went to my imaging appointment and watched as she put the slimy stuff all over my belly and looked around. There were stones in my gallbladder but nothing obstructing the neck. My liver was enlarged and my kidney was as well. You can see the stones in my kidneys still too and it was hurting after she starting putting pressure on it. The tech said I should hear something by Friday so we will see which one is causing my liver enzymes to sky-rocket.
I am also seeing little changes in my incision site. It's still pretty irritated and there is an odd lump under the skin that feels long and skinny, not round. It's pretty pink and warm. I will try to post some pictures for advice but plan to call Dr. Erickson tomorrow if it doesn't look better.
I woke up with a low grade fever for the 12th day in a row. The meds they have me on aren't really doing anything but making me sleepy, scary sleepy. I am finding it harder to drive now that I started on the Lyrica because I feel that drowsy feeling. The Lyrica has definitely started to address the nerve damage and it doesn't hurt at the level it did before, but I hate the price I have to pay mentally to feel just a small amount better.
I am sure by now I have alienated a few people. I am trying to avoid absolutely everyone until my moods are under control. Lyrica does have an anti-depressent in it but I haven't been on it long enough yet I think to make a difference. I feel so lonely and like I have been abandoned by everyone to deal with this alone, which I am coming to terms with. It has to get better.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Hmmm

Thought I would add that one of my incision sites has started to get red. There is a very hard area under it and off to the left. It doesn't feel warm but it's got a real pink look to it and is making the area really sore. If it doesn't look better in a couple of days I am going to call Dr. Erickson.

5 Weeks Post-op

Had my appointment yesterday for my 3rd post-op followup. The appointment lasted maybe 5 minutes and he said I don't need to come back for a month now. He said my scars look excellent and they are even starting to turn white. They made a joke that I am now their poster child for Hip Arthroscopy. So I am assuming things have gone well from their perspective too. The only thing he told me was that I probably need to take things a little easier and not to hop, jump, skip ... etc. I agree with him and since I have been having other issues that I will certainly slow down a little so I don't hurt myself.
This afternoon is my gallbladder ultrasound and I am hoping they find that it is causing my pain. Dr. Erickson even said that it may be referred pain from that in my back, so having things taken care of may help with the pain. If it isn't I am curious what next. They need to make sure my enzymes are not climbing and to find out why they came out that way in my bloodwork.
My last results came back and as I expected I have Rheumatoid Arthritis. I will be referred to a Rheumatologist. That's the last thing on my mind right now due to all the pain. My depression is getting worse by the day but I refuse to take anything for it. The meds are enough with what I am taking and I honestly have no idea internally what they are doing to me. So for now I will deal with the depression the best I can and work through it.
If all this wasn't enough my little man Nathan cut his hand last night while I was at work. I ran home to find he gashed along the inner part of his hand right under the ring finger and pinky. He had to get 14 stitches and a tetnus shot. My poor guy is so brave and he didn't even cry !
Today starts my weeks of covering both the helpdesk and the systems groups for both daily and oncall duties. Talk about stress !

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Humpty Dumpty

Can you believe it's been 5 weeks already ! It feels like longer to me and I don't think the last few weeks that I even felt like the surgery happened. Every now and then I feel a twinge of pain but it's usually gone as quickly as it came.

I saw Dr. Weinghart yesterday and had a low grade fever when I went in. He is guessing it may be Gallstones or Gallbladder disease (infection) that is causing my pain and the other symptoms and has ordered a sonogram (ultrasound) of my gallbladder. It really does fit with everything going on. The one thing I didn't like coming out of his mouth is that if it is in fact my gallbladder that I will have to have yet another surgery ... and soon. With my enzymes being high, the low grade fever now for 10 days and the pain in exactly the right spot, I am guessing he might be right. I couldn't schedule it until tomorrow because I have my post-op with Dr. Erickson this afternoon and I need to be able to schedule these without missing any time at work.

I am definitely feeling anxiety about all of this. I fix one thing and 10 more go wrong. Mentally I am done. I have dismissed the fact that at 37 I am a mess and shouldn't be going through any of this. Why now of all times ? The depression is setting in full force. I have 3 people going on vacation next week and have to be able to pick up their work along with my own, work I have no business really doing. If that wasn't enough stress the kids are starting school in 2 weeks and I haven't even started to prepare. All 3 are in different schools and I haven't even thought about registration and transportation yet. Brandon starts high school (Freshman), Nate is starting Middle School (6th Grade) and Heather is back to charter high school (omg a Junior this year). I am hoping since Bryan graduated and is having difficulties finding a job that I can lean on him a little bit until I am feeling better.
These things are so hard to keep up with when your feeling ill. The Lyrica and Oxycontin combo has made me very irrational and irritable. My moods are definitely all over the place and I, for the first time, have started to feel crazy. I don't have control right now and that's something I am not used to at all. I am feeling relief since starting the Lyrica so that's a positive thing. If I can get relief from some of this pain, I can deal with the moods and the weird crazy woman thoughts (hopefully people around me can!).

I am looking at this as a temporary state of mind and I can soon enough take control back once they have put me back together. So today I am Humpty Dumpty and I have people trying to put me back together again.

Monday, August 3, 2009

Morning !

So, I spoke to soon. I woke up with a fever again this morning and the most unbearable pain in my right side. There is also some cramping at the top of my belly again , which I am really beginning to question if it is really a backup or something else is going on. Considering I am taking Oxycontin and started back up on the Gabapentin, I should not be at this level of pain. Even with those in me I am sitting at an 8 for pain right now.
My hip hurts to put weight on it, my right muscles hurt so badly that they pull even when I sit. The pain is traveling through the bottom of my back and up the right side to my shoulder area. I rubbed it some last night but it hurt extremely bad and I felt the pain for hours afterwards. I am also having problems sleeping on both sides. The operated hip is sore and I have a new bruise that showed up halfway down my thigh. I must have hit it on something. The right side is absolutely horrible to lay on, so for now I am laying flat on my back. As you know that hurts me too but it's the best of the options.
I am slightly depressed today but I am guessing it's the pain again. It's taking over my life and I am miserable. I want to be out with my boys having fun and enjoying the last couple of weeks before school starts. I am not a religious person, but I am praying for some relief or someone who can find out what's wrong with me. I am not myself anymore and I miss me !

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Fever Finally Broke !

This was the first morning in a week I actually woke up without a low grade fever. I am stiff in every joint in my body but it beats the last week of pain. It looks like the Oxycontin is helping a little bit and I am thinking I probably needed a little bit to get used to it, even if it is a small dosage. The doctor also prescribed the Lyrica but the insurance company would not pay for it without an authorization, which they will try and get tomorrow. From what the pharmacy tells me they would rather I go back to the Gabapentin because it is a generic. This one is a $136 co-pay so I can see why. I don't care if I have to go back to the generic, I am perfectly fine with it.
I cleaned my house top to bottom and even got on the kitchen floor and scrubbed the tile. By the time I was finished my back hurt so bad ! It was my own fault but it really needed to be done. There is only so much a Swiffer can do ! Well I am off to be lazy and maybe soak in a nice bath for a bit. Heck I might even shave my legs.